LOOKING BACK TO 2015

I know its FORWARD EVER BACKWARD NEVER!! but then I look back and give thanks to God for all he has done for me.

2015 had loads of challenges and  at a point I have actually thought of doing a stupid thing; COMMIT SUICIDE.

It was as though I went from one form of difficulty into another. Soon afterwards depression sets in, and I got depressed a lot. I could be sitting down and out of the blues just start crying.

I do actually acknowledge the fact that some people had it worse than I did, I know should be more grateful but then I couldn't. I was like yeah, they have their own challenges and I also have mine, we all have ours. Till now, the words on my lips are "IT COULD ONLY HAVE BEEN GOD!!!"

There were days we had nothing at home, (we were very RICH), My PPA (Primary Place of Assignment) wasn't exciting; I had a boss that decided to make life miserable for me and I somehow allowed him get to me. I invested in my business and it hadn't yielded much, the list is endless. The challenges just kept on coming but in all I thank God.

I later found myself reading my bible and listening to gospel songs, because nothing to me made sense any more. I wanted to cry in God's presence and let him know exactly how I felt. My elder sister, thank God for her, showed me with God's word that it can only get better.

While we wait in the midst of difficulty, we as children of God shouldn't let the devil take hold of our moods or emotions. It might not be easy but as the songs says "NOBODY PROMISED THE ROAD WOULD BE EASY.."

So cheers to 2016... for me, my prayer is for God to direct my steps, I do not want to struggle in 2016. I know I am going to have challenges this year but its going to be a new me facing those challenges, because I know GOD is in charge. Father all I want this year is your Grace, Father, Grace.

I welcome you to my blog.